Nutcracker Casting.....

Hi, everyone. What I'm about to tell you guys is definitley not going to be easy. Sadly, i don't think I got cast in the Nutcracker Ballet this year. It completley broke my heart. I think this week we were supposed to be e-mailed and my parents were never contacted about Nutcracker. Now, I can't even listen to the music from waltsz of the snowflakes without tears streaming down my face. I had, had my heart completley set on getting the role as a soldier or a doll, but with me being a year or two too young to be in my small ballet school's pre-professional ballet company, and me being a year or two too old to be a party guest or a peppermint I guess my chances of getting into to this amazing ballet were extremley limited. There are only five or six dancers in my school's company and sadly they take almost every role except the young party guests, young Clara, nutcrcaker soldiers, mice, and peppermints. The only two roles I could possibly get I think are a soldier or a mouse, but I don't want to run around on the balls of my feet across a stage wearing a mouse mask. I would have given absoloutley anything to be a Nutcracker soldier, but sadly there are only four soldiers every year and I guess I wasn't one of the lucky four and I would have for sure known by now if I was Clara, but then again I have only been with my current ballet school for a year and Clara would be given to a dancer who has been training at my school since a very young age, I think. At least now I don't have to obsess over every ballet class about not being able to mess up because then my tecaher won't give me a role in the Nutcracker because clearly she won't put me in there anyway.



I have dealt with quite a few dissapointments with ballet before so this isn't big for me. But, don't get me worng. I am without a doubt one of the best in my class, and I do wll in every class and every class I improve mounds and my teacher (who I truly do really, really like and I know she likes me!) watches me strengthen every day as a dancer. I have to remember that I am a talented, very young ballet student, who has already been dancing en pointe for 5 months. Every dancer at my junior high school always say how they wish they were as flexible as me, how they want to do pointe like me, how they want to be as good of a dancer as me, how I have the perfect body for ballet. This is when I truly relaize how lucky I am and how there is always someone looking up to me and I don't think that really any ballet role could replace that.